Thursday, April 16, 2009


"when one day you all become a doctor, lawyer or engineer, you will earn a lot of money-rich. My primary school teacher told us in the class."

"But teacher, being a professional football player, we can earn more than them. David Beckham is able to earn 80,000 Pounds a week, times 6 is about RM480,000."

I was 11 years old at that time and that was what I replied. David actually earns more than 80k pounds but why my teacher never told us about it. Can a doctor earns 80k per month- he earns this figure per week. Maybe he is the only football player who made his 'humongous' fortune. By the way, I could not live without football-playing football almost every evening, drawing about football when I was free, committing vandalism by drawing football boots, players or even stadiums on my school text books and dreaming of becoming a national football player and MU player. I always thought of being a professional football player after graduating from secondary school. Ja, I was undoubtedly naive at that time because it was difficult to be a pro football player especially with such circumstance-devoid of parents, society and school's support. I never gave up to achieve this dream until form 4. 'Damals hat mir das Studium gar nicht gefallen'-I did not like studies at all. I still remember that I failed to pass some subjects in virtue of laziness. Only football was in my mind. However, my dream was with no avail. I do not have the chance to wear national football colour, play football in a stadium which is surrounded with 50,000 spectators who are watching my virtuosity, shouting 'changwin!', longing for my signature and score a plenty of marvelous goals in front of them.
At least I still have a pair of legs and eyes.......

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Nothing Gonna Change My Love for You

There is a story…..
David was an attractive man with a good complexion and plenty of women were longing to get him. However he only had eyes for a woman, Mary. They got to know each other since they studied in secondary school. David was 2 years older than Mary who had milky white skin, ponytail and was a curious mixture of tom boyishness and femininity. Actually both of them were fond of each other, but David never revealed his love to her because he realized that their relationship would not last longer: they will be separated with each other one day.
After David graduated from secondary school, he thought that he had no chance to see Mary anymore as he was enrolled at Kursk State Medical University in Russia to study Medicine and had to stay there for 6 years: he was thousands miles away from his own country. He tried to forsake her, forget her, and get her out of his mind but with no avail while Mary was sad: she wanted him not to study abroad but she could not say it out as studying abroad was David’s dream. She thought that she was being selfish by not letting him go. Mary still hoped that David could marry him one day. She loved him so much, burst into tears every time listening to the song ‘That’s why’. Before David went to Russia, Mary did send him a present: it was a song called ‘Complicated Heart’. The purpose she did so was to tell David: even if you want to go alone, I will be waiting when you are coming home.
Six years later, David was back to his own nation. He has not spoken for not because he was waiting for Mary but he could not find a woman who he really liked during his studies in Russia. Mary was still single too. She was waiting for David and hoped that she could meet him; they would live together until the end of their lives. After a few weeks coming back to his country, David decided to meet Mary who he has not seen her for almost 7 years. He finally made contact with her. When Mary saw David, tears well in her eyes, hugged him without saying a word. David was touched by her, his eyes turned red and whimpered; he has not cried since he was 14. “I love you”, David finally said it to Mary. At the same time, the song “nothing gonna change my love for you” was played.

"Nothing gonna change my love for you"

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They’ll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love.
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but nothing’s gonna change my
love for you.
If the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
you don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are.
So come with me and share this view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.


Last blog posted by me was 1 month ago. I am not idle to blog but I do not know what to write, what to tell, what to share: boring, dull and mundane daily routines. I wake up at 8 mornings, stay in college from morning until afternoon, then come back and doze off. After having dinner then continue to study, study, and study……ZZZ. Damn boring!! Maybe this is the life of a JPA scholar: he or she should have a great perseverance and dedication to studies yet I am not that kind of people. I know that I have to put more effort into studies, I have to finish all the homework given by lecturers but I cannot made a concentrated effort to finish them. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life…

Friday, February 27, 2009

The evildoer of the world....

Last week I went for 2 movies, Valkyrie on Saturday night and Der Untergang on Sunday afternoon. These movies have something in common: history background, the setting and they are based on true story.
Valkyrie is all about the solutions taken by some Nazi German generals and ministers to overthrow or assassinate the cruel dictator Adolf Hitler but their action was in vain. Actually, they almost make it, but their procrastinating of time failed them. If not, the death tolls during WW2 would not achieve as much as 5 million people as the monster(Hitler) was killed earlier.
Der Untergang( the downfall) narrates the circumstances of people in Germany during the downfall of Nazi Germany. The devastating destruction especially in Berlin due to the massive bombing conducted by Allies, killed a lot of people including innocent children, women and elder people. Moreover, some of them were also shot by their own soldiers: full of bloody, violent, sad, shocking and depressing scenes. The story ended when Hitler committed suicide and Allies took over Germany successfully.

After watching these movies, I found that not only non-German people loathed Nazi Germany but also their own people. They found that Hitler would lead Germany into hell, but they could not do anything: must obey any command from der Fuehrer(hitler), if not they would be sent to concentration camp-death. Many of the Germans who were accused allegedly that they opposed or betrayed the country were shot. Hitler, himself thought that he was the god, the savior of Germany- Germany belonged to him. Indeed, he was a Satan, he destroyed Germany

How could Hitler become the dictator of Germany? Via revolution like Fidel Castro in Cuba? won the civil war just like what was happened in China and Soviet Union? No. He became Chancellor because of the people have chosen him, elected him- via election, democracy. The Germans thought that he could ameliorate the economy and the life of people, bring Germany back to the top of the world again, cancel the treaty of Versailles which rose the burden of Germany. However, they were wrong. He have committed heinous crimes= massacred 6 million people including Germans and other races but mostly Jewish and invaded other countries. He, the evil of the world.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Friend again

A girl was on the way going back from school and I was there too, waiting for my cousin. I stared at her as she caught my interest. She was so mesmerizing, as pretty as a picture, with fair complexion and sparkling eyes.

Before that, she did not appear in my mind at all but after this incident, I lose my heart to her and I had intention to go after her. It was with no avail as I did not have courage and this relationship would not last longer as I was going to leave my secondary school after form 5, we would be separated with each other: moreover, maybe I will fly to Germany.

However, she is still my best friend until now and forever: that is just enough, just enough.

She is 3 years younger than me, a bit stubborn, straight-forward and smart( my perspective). We have a lot of things to share and she is the girl after my own heart: she likes the same things and has the same opinions as me. When problems plague her, I will try my best to lend her a hand, when she is down, I will comfort her. She will do so to me too. Honestly, I have not seen her almost half year, I almost forget her appearance, but I do still remember her: she is still my friend.

I always think that loving someones,
is the greatest feeling.
I realize that loving a friend,
is even much better.
I can lost people I love,
but I never lost my friend.

She is my best friend...forever...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Courage and Cowardice

"If both of you want to play one more time, you( 2 persons) can use changwin's ticket and share another ticket(RM10), each pays RM5". Edwin suggested. Then, they decided to 'fly' one more time without shouting.

Yesterday, my friends and my friends 'rushed' to Genting Highland as the following Monday is a holiday and moreover it was the place we were longing for. I have been there before and it was the fourth time: I still feel scared every time playing something which is related to the word 'coaster'. We stayed overnight. The first day we just entered to snow house( extremely cold, -5'c), and went for a walk in The First World Theme Park.

All of us, except me, intended to play some games which could bring excitement( their perspectives) at outdoor theme park next day. During that night, I just hoped that tomorrow would be a heavy rain or these fearful games would be out of service. However, I had to play. Nothing was happened. Luckily, I had courage and I was no longer afraid of them: corkscrew roller coaster, flying dragon and space shot. Meanwhile, after sitting on the pirates ship, I felt dizzy and almost wanted to vomit: I could not continue to play other 'games' anymore'.

'Flying coaster': I loathed this phrase!!! However, my friend has bought the ticket for me and they forced me to play: suffer indeed. There were a lot of twists and I could not play, I could feel dizzy, vomit and even faint, if I did so! Mum, Dad, I did not want to play!!! In order to avoid 'flying', I expressed my situation to my friends and finally, haha, I was safe!! Hence, they 'flew' and I just stood outside, waited for them alongside taking care of their bags. They were shouting loudly during flying and I could not imagine how if I took part too. So terrible ha!!
There was still a ticket( mine) and after they finished playing, 2 of my friends wanted to fly again. and: READ THE FIRST PARAGRAPH..I personally thought that they were really brave, full of courage and I was totally a COWARD!!!

These two friends are, Sarah and Poo Hui..They are the brave...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

My Old Friends

Before I would like to write about my old friends , let me begin with my perspective of friend. Friend is a person you know well and like, and who is not usually a memer of your family. I am the one who cannot live in this world without friend-without friends, my life is not more than a shadow of death. My life is mundane and meaningless if i do not have friend.


I categorize my friends into

old friends,
new friends,
best friends,
ordinary friends.

If both of us know each other at least 4 years, I will consider them as my old friends. Actually, almost all of my old friends are those I befriended with them during primary and secondary school's time. Most of them are crazy and mischievous, including me. When i was in Form 4, during the Malay Language class, my old friends and I who sat in front of the class were sleeping. If you were there, you would see students(us) of the front row were laying on the table. I could not imagine what would be happened if our principal or counsellor saw our 'master piece of work' as our class was considered as the most excellent class as compared to other's.

Besides, if we found that the class was very boring, then the 'world conference' would be held- we talked with each other loudly just like a debate. Sometimes, we were scolded by teacher because of our debate was 'bursting with vitality'-TOO LOUD indeed. "I know that you all go for tuition classes, you are experts already, need not listen to what I teach, but please keep your mouth shut!!!"some of the teachers would tease us- we loathed them as well, ha ha. I have a friend who was 'extraordinary' and 'weird' because during Physics class, he pored over chemistry books, during chemistry, he read biology and...dun laugh..Ha Ha.. He always read other subject books during a particular class. By virtue of this, we called him scientist and moreover his hair style was like Albert Einstein's. However, he is one of my best friends indeed as we know each other since I was 4. He always gives me a hand when problems are plaguing me.

Have you met a person who could get almost 100% for his Chemistry, Physics, Additional Maths and Mathematics but 'scored' 0% for his History. This person who 'lack of patriotism' is my old friend. Actually, he would not get a 'big egg' for this subject but he was doing something different during the test. Do you know what he has done until he could get such a 'horrible' results? The History test comprised subjective questions and we needed to fill in the blanks given. He wrote Dota's information in the blanks( he was a Dota addict), such as 'Lina', 'Knight Stalker', 'Chaos Knight', 'Yasha Sange', '6.52Al+' and so on. Ha Ha..You will be amused only if you have played Dota before. He is a skinny, tall and has a dark complexion(like me)-we call him bamboo. In the class, he was my 'neighbour' and both of us always had something to talk but full of craps. When I could not solve maths questions or comprehend physics theories,he was willing to teach me. There was a great betterment of my science subjects in virtue of him. Thanks!

To be continued
........WIN THE GREAT could not continue to write about them as 'his' energy is used up...Next time....


" A very good way to improve your English is to write a reflective journal once a week". This is what my EALD teacher told me last week during my first EALD class- I was 'forced' to be a blogger since that day.
Actually, I am not the only student who was compelled to do so but also all of the students who are studying AUSMAT at KBU college this year. By the way, I personally think that it is undoubtedly a GOOD way to improve my English and I am EXTREMELY grateful to my teacher for this. Besides, I can express my emotions, feelings and share with you all some of my experiences via blogging. I hope that you all can comprehend to what I write as I am not proficient in English, maybe I will make some silly grammar mistakes during blogging.