Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I m fired...
My neighbour is an African and we r having dinner every friday nite. My boss was recently back to China coz his father just passed away. Hence, i could fully utilize this ´´opportunity´´ to do something more important; didnt be a slave for one day and played football with my friends from Scandinavian(some of them were absent as they went to mosque for religious purpose). However, the lousy futsal hall was closed as the workers there were on strike; they didnt wanna work as they were low paid. Well, we decided to go to bar. we took around 2 hour to reach there because there was a peace demonstration against war along the street. Gosh! the bar tat belonged to a Russian has been burnt. A guy nearby told us that it was because the owner had forbidden blacks to enter his bar, and a guy called Bracha did so as he couldnt have a great time wif his frens(mostly blacks) there. during his explanation I received an unexpected call.´´hallo, where are you, arent you in office now, dont u think tat i dont noe everything in the bureau though i m not there!! you are fired! Fuck you!!´´ shouted my boss..Good, I was fired, luckily I was fired, I didnt need to work for day and nite and just earned 1000000 Rupiah per month.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
first blog in Germany
Very long time didnt blog ad; coz ´no one´ force me to do so, hahaha.....
Now, in Germany, my dream. almost hav everything. have been longing for this since was a little kid; study abroad, watching LIVE futbal, a 16inch laptop, playing favorite games whenever i wan, a guitar wif me, buy watever i wan, get lot $$, snow... By the way, still miss my lovely parents, brothers, relatives and some of my frens. very grateful.... still hav lot of things to do, to achieve, so that, so that my dream wont go away, and ppl tat I like or love, will be happy.
there is another dream I ve, but it could only be achieved, if ´nationalism´, ´patriotism´, ´greed´ and ´discrimination´ wouldnt exist at all in the world. Tat is; everyone isnt proud of their nation, we love all ppl around d world regardless of ethnicgroups or status and always think that the most important things in our whole life are; love, feeling and conscience. A quote from Sophie Scholl; ´Es will Gott, Gewissen und Mitgefühl´. Then we can go anywhere we like, we can live anywhere we like without any restriction and the whole world belongs not oni to u and mine but to all us. ´Assimilation´ of certain minority wont exist if we have ´love´, ´conflicts´ wont exist if we have ´love´. and we couldnt even find the word ´WAR´ in dictionaries. Well, this is impossible to be achieved coz as we grow older, we become more ignorant and stupid; we start to differentiate ´colours´ and ´status´, we didnt ´think´.
Now, in Germany, my dream. almost hav everything. have been longing for this since was a little kid; study abroad, watching LIVE futbal, a 16inch laptop, playing favorite games whenever i wan, a guitar wif me, buy watever i wan, get lot $$, snow... By the way, still miss my lovely parents, brothers, relatives and some of my frens. very grateful.... still hav lot of things to do, to achieve, so that, so that my dream wont go away, and ppl tat I like or love, will be happy.
there is another dream I ve, but it could only be achieved, if ´nationalism´, ´patriotism´, ´greed´ and ´discrimination´ wouldnt exist at all in the world. Tat is; everyone isnt proud of their nation, we love all ppl around d world regardless of ethnicgroups or status and always think that the most important things in our whole life are; love, feeling and conscience. A quote from Sophie Scholl; ´Es will Gott, Gewissen und Mitgefühl´. Then we can go anywhere we like, we can live anywhere we like without any restriction and the whole world belongs not oni to u and mine but to all us. ´Assimilation´ of certain minority wont exist if we have ´love´, ´conflicts´ wont exist if we have ´love´. and we couldnt even find the word ´WAR´ in dictionaries. Well, this is impossible to be achieved coz as we grow older, we become more ignorant and stupid; we start to differentiate ´colours´ and ´status´, we didnt ´think´.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Dream...
"when one day you all become a doctor, lawyer or engineer, you will earn a lot of money-rich. My primary school teacher told us in the class."
"But teacher, being a professional football player, we can earn more than them. David Beckham is able to earn 80,000 Pounds a week, times 6 is about RM480,000."
I was 11 years old at that time and that was what I replied. David actually earns more than 80k pounds but why my teacher never told us about it. Can a doctor earns 80k per month- he earns this figure per week. Maybe he is the only football player who made his 'humongous' fortune. By the way, I could not live without football-playing football almost every evening, drawing about football when I was free, committing vandalism by drawing football boots, players or even stadiums on my school text books and dreaming of becoming a national football player and MU player. I always thought of being a professional football player after graduating from secondary school. Ja, I was undoubtedly naive at that time because it was difficult to be a pro football player especially with such circumstance-devoid of parents, society and school's support. I never gave up to achieve this dream until form 4. 'Damals hat mir das Studium gar nicht gefallen'-I did not like studies at all. I still remember that I failed to pass some subjects in virtue of laziness. Only football was in my mind. However, my dream was with no avail. I do not have the chance to wear national football colour, play football in a stadium which is surrounded with 50,000 spectators who are watching my virtuosity, shouting 'changwin!', longing for my signature and score a plenty of marvelous goals in front of them.
At least I still have a pair of legs and eyes.......
"But teacher, being a professional football player, we can earn more than them. David Beckham is able to earn 80,000 Pounds a week, times 6 is about RM480,000."
I was 11 years old at that time and that was what I replied. David actually earns more than 80k pounds but why my teacher never told us about it. Can a doctor earns 80k per month- he earns this figure per week. Maybe he is the only football player who made his 'humongous' fortune. By the way, I could not live without football-playing football almost every evening, drawing about football when I was free, committing vandalism by drawing football boots, players or even stadiums on my school text books and dreaming of becoming a national football player and MU player. I always thought of being a professional football player after graduating from secondary school. Ja, I was undoubtedly naive at that time because it was difficult to be a pro football player especially with such circumstance-devoid of parents, society and school's support. I never gave up to achieve this dream until form 4. 'Damals hat mir das Studium gar nicht gefallen'-I did not like studies at all. I still remember that I failed to pass some subjects in virtue of laziness. Only football was in my mind. However, my dream was with no avail. I do not have the chance to wear national football colour, play football in a stadium which is surrounded with 50,000 spectators who are watching my virtuosity, shouting 'changwin!', longing for my signature and score a plenty of marvelous goals in front of them.
At least I still have a pair of legs and eyes.......
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Nothing Gonna Change My Love for You
There is a story…..
David was an attractive man with a good complexion and plenty of women were longing to get him. However he only had eyes for a woman, Mary. They got to know each other since they studied in secondary school. David was 2 years older than Mary who had milky white skin, ponytail and was a curious mixture of tom boyishness and femininity. Actually both of them were fond of each other, but David never revealed his love to her because he realized that their relationship would not last longer: they will be separated with each other one day.
After David graduated from secondary school, he thought that he had no chance to see Mary anymore as he was enrolled at Kursk State Medical University in Russia to study Medicine and had to stay there for 6 years: he was thousands miles away from his own country. He tried to forsake her, forget her, and get her out of his mind but with no avail while Mary was sad: she wanted him not to study abroad but she could not say it out as studying abroad was David’s dream. She thought that she was being selfish by not letting him go. Mary still hoped that David could marry him one day. She loved him so much, burst into tears every time listening to the song ‘That’s why’. Before David went to Russia, Mary did send him a present: it was a song called ‘Complicated Heart’. The purpose she did so was to tell David: even if you want to go alone, I will be waiting when you are coming home.
Six years later, David was back to his own nation. He has not spoken for not because he was waiting for Mary but he could not find a woman who he really liked during his studies in Russia. Mary was still single too. She was waiting for David and hoped that she could meet him; they would live together until the end of their lives. After a few weeks coming back to his country, David decided to meet Mary who he has not seen her for almost 7 years. He finally made contact with her. When Mary saw David, tears well in her eyes, hugged him without saying a word. David was touched by her, his eyes turned red and whimpered; he has not cried since he was 14. “I love you”, David finally said it to Mary. At the same time, the song “nothing gonna change my love for you” was played.
"Nothing gonna change my love for you"
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They’ll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love.
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but nothing’s gonna change my
love for you.
If the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
you don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are.
So come with me and share this view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.
David was an attractive man with a good complexion and plenty of women were longing to get him. However he only had eyes for a woman, Mary. They got to know each other since they studied in secondary school. David was 2 years older than Mary who had milky white skin, ponytail and was a curious mixture of tom boyishness and femininity. Actually both of them were fond of each other, but David never revealed his love to her because he realized that their relationship would not last longer: they will be separated with each other one day.
After David graduated from secondary school, he thought that he had no chance to see Mary anymore as he was enrolled at Kursk State Medical University in Russia to study Medicine and had to stay there for 6 years: he was thousands miles away from his own country. He tried to forsake her, forget her, and get her out of his mind but with no avail while Mary was sad: she wanted him not to study abroad but she could not say it out as studying abroad was David’s dream. She thought that she was being selfish by not letting him go. Mary still hoped that David could marry him one day. She loved him so much, burst into tears every time listening to the song ‘That’s why’. Before David went to Russia, Mary did send him a present: it was a song called ‘Complicated Heart’. The purpose she did so was to tell David: even if you want to go alone, I will be waiting when you are coming home.
Six years later, David was back to his own nation. He has not spoken for not because he was waiting for Mary but he could not find a woman who he really liked during his studies in Russia. Mary was still single too. She was waiting for David and hoped that she could meet him; they would live together until the end of their lives. After a few weeks coming back to his country, David decided to meet Mary who he has not seen her for almost 7 years. He finally made contact with her. When Mary saw David, tears well in her eyes, hugged him without saying a word. David was touched by her, his eyes turned red and whimpered; he has not cried since he was 14. “I love you”, David finally said it to Mary. At the same time, the song “nothing gonna change my love for you” was played.
"Nothing gonna change my love for you"
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They’ll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love.
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but nothing’s gonna change my
love for you.
If the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
you don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are.
So come with me and share this view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you.
sienzzzz......
Last blog posted by me was 1 month ago. I am not idle to blog but I do not know what to write, what to tell, what to share: boring, dull and mundane daily routines. I wake up at 8 mornings, stay in college from morning until afternoon, then come back and doze off. After having dinner then continue to study, study, and study……ZZZ. Damn boring!! Maybe this is the life of a JPA scholar: he or she should have a great perseverance and dedication to studies yet I am not that kind of people. I know that I have to put more effort into studies, I have to finish all the homework given by lecturers but I cannot made a concentrated effort to finish them. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life. I feel bored with my recent life…
Friday, February 27, 2009
The evildoer of the world....
Last week I went for 2 movies, Valkyrie on Saturday night and Der Untergang on Sunday afternoon. These movies have something in common: history background, the setting and they are based on true story.
Valkyrie is all about the solutions taken by some Nazi German generals and ministers to overthrow or assassinate the cruel dictator Adolf Hitler but their action was in vain. Actually, they almost make it, but their procrastinating of time failed them. If not, the death tolls during WW2 would not achieve as much as 5 million people as the monster(Hitler) was killed earlier.
Der Untergang( the downfall) narrates the circumstances of people in Germany during the downfall of Nazi Germany. The devastating destruction especially in Berlin due to the massive bombing conducted by Allies, killed a lot of people including innocent children, women and elder people. Moreover, some of them were also shot by their own soldiers: full of bloody, violent, sad, shocking and depressing scenes. The story ended when Hitler committed suicide and Allies took over Germany successfully.
After watching these movies, I found that not only non-German people loathed Nazi Germany but also their own people. They found that Hitler would lead Germany into hell, but they could not do anything: must obey any command from der Fuehrer(hitler), if not they would be sent to concentration camp-death. Many of the Germans who were accused allegedly that they opposed or betrayed the country were shot. Hitler, himself thought that he was the god, the savior of Germany- Germany belonged to him. Indeed, he was a Satan, he destroyed Germany
How could Hitler become the dictator of Germany? Via revolution like Fidel Castro in Cuba? won the civil war just like what was happened in China and Soviet Union? No. He became Chancellor because of the people have chosen him, elected him- via election, democracy. The Germans thought that he could ameliorate the economy and the life of people, bring Germany back to the top of the world again, cancel the treaty of Versailles which rose the burden of Germany. However, they were wrong. He have committed heinous crimes= massacred 6 million people including Germans and other races but mostly Jewish and invaded other countries. He, the evil of the world.
Valkyrie is all about the solutions taken by some Nazi German generals and ministers to overthrow or assassinate the cruel dictator Adolf Hitler but their action was in vain. Actually, they almost make it, but their procrastinating of time failed them. If not, the death tolls during WW2 would not achieve as much as 5 million people as the monster(Hitler) was killed earlier.
Der Untergang( the downfall) narrates the circumstances of people in Germany during the downfall of Nazi Germany. The devastating destruction especially in Berlin due to the massive bombing conducted by Allies, killed a lot of people including innocent children, women and elder people. Moreover, some of them were also shot by their own soldiers: full of bloody, violent, sad, shocking and depressing scenes. The story ended when Hitler committed suicide and Allies took over Germany successfully.
After watching these movies, I found that not only non-German people loathed Nazi Germany but also their own people. They found that Hitler would lead Germany into hell, but they could not do anything: must obey any command from der Fuehrer(hitler), if not they would be sent to concentration camp-death. Many of the Germans who were accused allegedly that they opposed or betrayed the country were shot. Hitler, himself thought that he was the god, the savior of Germany- Germany belonged to him. Indeed, he was a Satan, he destroyed Germany
How could Hitler become the dictator of Germany? Via revolution like Fidel Castro in Cuba? won the civil war just like what was happened in China and Soviet Union? No. He became Chancellor because of the people have chosen him, elected him- via election, democracy. The Germans thought that he could ameliorate the economy and the life of people, bring Germany back to the top of the world again, cancel the treaty of Versailles which rose the burden of Germany. However, they were wrong. He have committed heinous crimes= massacred 6 million people including Germans and other races but mostly Jewish and invaded other countries. He, the evil of the world.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Friend again
A girl was on the way going back from school and I was there too, waiting for my cousin. I stared at her as she caught my interest. She was so mesmerizing, as pretty as a picture, with fair complexion and sparkling eyes.
Before that, she did not appear in my mind at all but after this incident, I lose my heart to her and I had intention to go after her. It was with no avail as I did not have courage and this relationship would not last longer as I was going to leave my secondary school after form 5, we would be separated with each other: moreover, maybe I will fly to Germany.
However, she is still my best friend until now and forever: that is just enough, just enough.
She is 3 years younger than me, a bit stubborn, straight-forward and smart( my perspective). We have a lot of things to share and she is the girl after my own heart: she likes the same things and has the same opinions as me. When problems plague her, I will try my best to lend her a hand, when she is down, I will comfort her. She will do so to me too. Honestly, I have not seen her almost half year, I almost forget her appearance, but I do still remember her: she is still my friend.
I always think that loving someones,
is the greatest feeling. However,
I realize that loving a friend,
is even much better.
I can lost people I love,
but I never lost my friend.
She is my best friend...forever...
Before that, she did not appear in my mind at all but after this incident, I lose my heart to her and I had intention to go after her. It was with no avail as I did not have courage and this relationship would not last longer as I was going to leave my secondary school after form 5, we would be separated with each other: moreover, maybe I will fly to Germany.
However, she is still my best friend until now and forever: that is just enough, just enough.
She is 3 years younger than me, a bit stubborn, straight-forward and smart( my perspective). We have a lot of things to share and she is the girl after my own heart: she likes the same things and has the same opinions as me. When problems plague her, I will try my best to lend her a hand, when she is down, I will comfort her. She will do so to me too. Honestly, I have not seen her almost half year, I almost forget her appearance, but I do still remember her: she is still my friend.
I always think that loving someones,
is the greatest feeling. However,
I realize that loving a friend,
is even much better.
I can lost people I love,
but I never lost my friend.
She is my best friend...forever...
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